DARE TO BE VULNERABLE

"I am learning that the key to life is not about how to be closed and numb while expecting the emotional benefits of being open, but learning how to become a healer of ones own soul in order to TRUST that you are safe within your openness:)" -- Jada Smith-

God can always offer us wisdom, can strengthen our soul to be able to exercise trust to be open. We will learn about boundaries and sometimes we'll get hurt while exploring our individual boundaries, but the experience and the joy of the lessons you learn about life comes with it.

"Daring Greatly means the courage to BE VULNERABLE. It means to show Up and be seen. To ASK for what you NEED. To talk about how you're feeling. To have the HARD conversations. "

Sometimes the heart gets weary, fatigue or tight, but having the wisdom to find the little "nuggets" in between the heartache we experience while being vulnerable are imperative. They are gifts and blessings into our own life when we can find the hidden lessons, in between the hurt, challenges, brokenness. We can learn from one another even if sometimes we must choose to part, to let go. 

i have LEARN to live my LIFE without being afraid that sometimes I might be the one that LOVES the most. ☺️✌️😎💤💤💤💤💓💞

Embrace Your Story

I'm up bright and super early today.

I am writing a personal Biographical Essay to be submitted for review along with a package for acceptance to a very great College I am applying to.... 

Finally man!...... 

After having to put my school on hold to take care of other priorities, I am able to take myself to College Yo'! 

This particular university has the perfect Curriculum and program that I have been wanting.

And as I sit here trying to have the prefect words to write, it dawned on me that the there is nothing I need to dig in to write or to impress. 

I have a very Imperfect story that does not need to be made up perfect with a "fluffy ending" and unicorns shooting rainbows and stuff. 

My life has SIMPLY SUCKED at moments just like everyone else, and I have had so many crazy challenges just.... like ....everyone else. I have had good and bad times, lots of tears and lots smiles. But our story is not really defined in all the "grandeur" and accomplishments in life, our story is really made about the times we doubted ourself, BUT kept BELIEVING... Is made out about the times that we were betrayed and yet we KEPT TRUSTING.... Is made out about the times that we were.... KNOCKED....DOWN but kept GETTING BACK UP. 

And as I try to finish my essay with a KNOT in my stomach mixed with fear and excitement at the same time because of this new challenge ahead, I am trying to hold my tears because as I look at my story I don't see challenges, tears, betrayal, pain or disappointments. 

This story/essay has VICTORY written all over it. God really has a special way to turn a story of an ordinary person and make it "eternally purposely" to leave a mark somewhere in a corner of someone else's heart, if we are vulnerable enough to share it!! 

I hope today you take PRIDE in your own story, embrace it, accept it and push froward with it and keep BELIEVING in yourself! 

Please please please Pray for me and KEEP me accountable... I am going to need it! 😉

Much Love,

Marisabel! 

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HIS REWARD is.....GREATER!!!

A few days ago, I followed thru w/ a very hard decision I was procrastinating for almost a month for the simple fact of honoring myself, my values and God! 

..... Also, Plans that were necessary to put on hold for the last 5 years, Finally became decisions to pursue this week! 

#NotGonnaMissABeat 

Sometimes in your walk w/ God is not all #PinkColoredGlasses . Sometimes is a tough battle in between denying myself for the things I want versus pursuing God's will for my life. 

Sometimes decisions are hard, they break u a bit, shake u up, they might make you a little sad, but when you follow Christ not as a set of "rules" and "rituals, but as a genuine EFFORT of doing things not because "God says so" but for the simple fact that is the RIGHT thing to do, that's when in between the brokenness of those decisions you can encounter God's power and grace within you to exercise the faith necessary to believe that His reward for everything you choose to let go will be GREATER!!! 

A...MEN!

Kelly... Thank you for the many tight hugs yesterday and Thank you for sharing your devotion with me... God knew I needed that breath of fresh air!

YOU blessed and ENCOURAGED my spirit immensely!!!! 😘😘😘😘👯👯 

I love having a friend like you! 

And thank you to my amazing close friends for being so loving and there for me! Muah!!! 

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If u see me, encourage me, give me a hug 😀 and hold me accountable! 

Much Love,

Marisabel 

Digna de ser Amada.... Worthy to be Love By Him

Today 4 years ago, mark the day when I set foot on Florida SOIL... Today 4 years ago my challenging journey of rebuilding started. 

I was so Scared, even though I had a Big smile on my face. My knees were shakin and my heart was racing, not sure of the unknown, but 

God kept whispering into my heart.......

"Life is tough my darling, but so are YOU.....

you are STRONGER in me!!" 

My heart was broken in pieces... I suffered from anxiety because of the sudden changes I had experience that past year... My world had Crumbled... Broken dreams of a marriage life was vaporized in the midst of days. I faced challenge after challenge after challenge prior that year and in the middle of the anxiety, the judgement of those who pointed fingers at me because of my decision, I made a commitment and made sure to HOLD God's word into my heart. Even though I didn't know how it'll all workout in my future. 

I still remember vividly how I was feeling the day before arriving to Florida .....There I stood in San Antonio, Texas. In a small room at a Motel... Halfway to my destination (Florida)  Without much money in my bank account in my bank account ((enough to get me to my trip))...a 5 year old and an almost 2 year old. No job..

There in that dark room after my little ones were gone to sleep, I stared at the ceiling, scared and with a little bit of doubt.....I SHOOK MYSELF before the fear would try to overtake me ..... Right there I vowed to myself, to my kids and to God that I was going to hold onto His promise of a better life for me in Florida no matter the hard work I needed to face, I was going to make it work.... No turning BACK! 

And looking back 4 years now, it was in the midst of all those challenges that God show off Himself in my life in a miraculous way..... Quietly, but Very LOUDLY inside my heart....

I used to hear stories of people having miracles in their lives in a big way, mighty majestic. To me God performed miracles after miracles, in the quiet places of my heart, in the small things, in my everyday, in strangers, in family members. 

It molded my faith and my character as an individual and as a Christian. He started healing my heart within the new challenges that presented to me on that first few years. 

There were times I could not HANDLE IT ANYMORE. But I kept faithfully calling up on Him, Declaring His word, His promises.

And just thinking about my moving anniversary I look back in amaze of How amazingly BIG God has SHOW Up in my Life. He has RAISED me UP... I didn't do it by my own strength but HIS. I am INDEPENDENT today, because I am completely and totally DEPENDENT upon Him. He Raise me Up Financially, Spiritually, Emotionally, Physically. He provided and raised 2 little ones side by side with me and continues to do so without missing a beat. 

I have always believed in not having any limitations as an individual, and  God never let me down on that and has given me the ultimate life lesson in understanding that when you are by His side there is NO LIMITATIONS. 

His presence in my life has ELEVATED ME, I have been able to provide for me and my children, to be able to live on my own, to have a good job. He brought me to a place where I was able to join a community of amazing people, to be a part of a community in an amazing Church. Which has given me the opportunity to teach God's values to my children and I have had the opportunity to travel to the other side of the world to Serve Him, All of this in the midst of my challenges. 

I am so grateful for everyone that has been part of my journey, then and Now. 

And today I stand strong...... But I recognize that His work in me does not end here... There is a lot more challenges I am sure I'll have to face to become the person I need to be for the next level He is going to take me. 

I am so thankful for the life God has chosen for me and I trust wholeheartedly His will for my future. 

So please pray for me.... I'm making a few decisions to continue my growth and on track of what He has for me. If u are a close friend please every time you see me, I give you permission to continue to push me and to hold me accountable for the next goals I have this year. 

May the Glory of God continues to show in the work He is doing in my life.

So today I say....

Yes....

My name is Marisabel Matta.

I am a believer of Jesus Christ.

I am a woman of God. 

I am a business woman for His Kingdom.

I am a single mother.

I am a missionary.

I am a servant for my community in His name.

I am a leader.

I am a writer. 

And I am soon to be a Student. ;-)

And.... Most importantly 

I am WORTHY of being LOVE..... Soy Digna de ser Amada. 

And today I extend my heart to you to remind you that ...... 

If I am worthy ..... So.... ARE.... YOU!!!

Much love,

Muah!! Besos!! 

#DropsMic #BoOm 

#DivaOnTheLooseCheckingOut

FEMININITY is part of your Inner Beauty... Embrace it!

"Feminity is not just lipstick, stylist hairdos & trendy clothes. 

It is the DIVINE adornment of humanity. It finds expression in your qualities of your capacity, your spirituality, delicacy to LOVE, radiance, sensitivity, creativity, charm, graciousness, gentleness, dignity, & QUIET STRENGTH. It manifest differently in each girl or woman, but each of you possesses it. FEMININITY is part of YOUR INNER BEAUTY."

#EMBRACEIT 

For the past years, I have struggled to find that place where I could and completely say that I was comfortable with my femininity. Just the word itself has so much depth, that I was not able back then to understand.

And in my journey of discovering and pursuing the woman God intended for me to be. I have struggled, questioned myself, doubted, settled for less and even neglected myself. But been able to come and arrive to a place in life where I can say... YES! 

I accept myself, my femininity within me. Finding the balance to know that yes make up, "fashion", clothes, and accessories and sparkles are all great and "dandy", BUT realizing that it comes from within and that I can be creative and Free in expressing myself on the Outside according to how amazing I feel on the inside, it's a gift to carry in your life in itself.

***Accept your BEAUTY within and let it Flow to the outside world......

Don't HOLD Back..

And Find your Own "Beautiful".***

***Besos*** 💋💋💋

#EmbraceYourself #FindYourFemininity #BringYourSparklesFromTheInsideOUT #DustThatRidiculousHotPINKLipstick #AndHandleYOURBusiness 

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Live your DREAM and Share your PASSION

#ThatSingleMomStatusTho 

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"This is YOUR LIFE. 

Do what you LOVE and Do it often. If you don't LIKE something CHANGE IT. If you don't like your job, QUIT. If you don't have enough time, STOP watching TV. If you are looking for the LOVE of Your Life, STOP; they will be waiting for you when YOU START DOING THE THINGS YOU LOVE. Stop Overanalyzing, All emotions are BEAUTIFUL. When you eat, appreciate EVERY LAST BITE.

LIFE IS SIMPLE. Open your mind, arms and heart to new things and people, WE ARE UNITED IN OUR DIFFERENCES. Ask the next person you see what their PASSION is and SHARE your inspiring dream with them.

TRAVEL OFTEN; getting LOST will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come ONCE, SEIZE THEM.

Life is about the people you meet, and the things you CREATE with them so GO OUT and START CREATING.

LIFE IS SHORT..... So LIVE YOUR DREAM AND SHARE YOUR PASSION."

Early MERRY CHRISTMAS MESSAGE from this little family to yours! 

May this Christmas Season will be  a time for you to REFLECT on your life and evaluate the things and people you really VALUE and go pursue IT/CHERISH THEM. 

I hope you hold the moments you build with the ones you love Close to your heart. And I hope you never forget to RECEIVE the Unique, True and SPECIAL LOVE that Only JESUS can provide into your life. 

 If I were to die tomorrow, please remember me as someone who LOVES LIFE, someone who's gotten redemption and freedom through Jesus. Someone who is NOT PERFECT... But completely IMPERFECT enough to receive Gods Grace in life!

My wish and prayer for you this season is to simply Seize every single moment in your life.

SLOW DOWN....once in a while.... LOOK AROUND... BE CRAZY For a CHANGE... SEIZE THE MOMENT... 

CHEERS to the BEST CHRISTMAS season!!! 🍷🍷🍷✌️😎😘😘😘💕💕💕💕🎄🎄🎄🎄✌️💃🍷🍷🍷💋💋💋

As always, Much Love!!!!! 

Besos... Tons and tons of Besos! 💋💋💋💋💋💋

Merry Christmas!!!! 

#christmas2015 #PuertoRico #vacation #veryLastminuteTrip #enjoyinglife #weDontknowabouttomorrow #merrychristmas

Happy 35th Birthday to Me!!!

I was having mixed emotions about turning 35

It's such a different age and stage in my life... There has been times in my lives that bdays were not that meaningful but with the passing of the years each one have had a specific meaning to me. A different milestone happens, reaching a new level of personal growth and a new fresh opportunity to reach a higher level of self-actualization.

I am more than thankful to God for giving me the amazing opportunity of reaching amaZing things in my life. From traveling, serving, meeting amazing people that have touched my heart... Others breaking my heart but leaving me with a lesson that has made me stronger. 

But this year was different, I started to worry about my age a little (I know silly) but only because I really don't feel my age... I feel REJUVENATED, FULL of LIFE yet, my age is going "Down hill" --if ya know what I mean-- lol

It was also a bittersweet moment been the first year without the kiddos for a complete holiday. 

And looking back at this amazing bday weekend. visiting friends that are like family to me. Feeling their warmth and closeness, knowing how much they care about me and my family. Made me realized that there was no reason for me to be "fussing" within me about age. I look back at these amazing years...

Where I have been completely broken, yet restored by God. I have been weary but yet was able to gain new STRENGTH. I... Have ... Been .. CHALLENGED this year including w/ health and life routines changes, yet God always makes a way to pour His favor onto me and making it work for the purpose He has for me.  And most importantly all these years have brought me the opportunity to BUILD and CULTIVATE Amazing RELATIONSHIPS. 

No time has been wasted really and every single person that is part of my life have invested in me in a Non-selfish way! You ALL have change me and my heart! 💕💕  

And so I receive my new age, and this new stage of my life...

In between Coffee dates, having the hospitality in staying at different friend's houses, sharing Holidays with their families, sharing new moments with friends that start a new stage, celebrating weddings and the joy from them transferred into me from the purchase of a home.  Being a part of their new happenings of their lives, catching up, dancing, hugs and tons of hugs, hangs out... O...M..G... And Wine how can I forget the wine shared together... Lots and lots! 👌🍷 haha.. 

And To an Amazing big Family I have in Florida that is there for me and my kids and loves us unconditionally! That with their presence in the kiddos' life and mine have STRETCHED me to become a BETTER person and family member! 

What can I say....

I'm one blessed gal! 

This trip reminded me that looking back... time has not Been WASTED! 

and I am so happy about that and I am very excited and thankful of all the new memories that I will continue to build every single time The Lord allows me to open my eyes each morning! 

Soooo there you have it....With a grateful and bouncy Heart, I raise my glass.... 🍷🍷 

Cheers to my 35th Birthday!!!! 

Cheers to a new year of discovering more places of Healing in my heart.... Cheers to continue to experience that perfect Love God has planted in my heart... Cheers to the amazing people that chooses to love me in the midst of challenges, distance, time difference. THANK YOU FOR INVESTING IN ME. 

May God continue to show me the True Riches of life, May I continue to move BEYOND my comfort Zone for His purpose. May I find new and fresh LIGHT in Him. 

Thank you to all of you that make my life Extremely wonderful... 

I am thankful for all the ones who have invested of their time, love, energy, making room in your lives to Include me in it!!!! I love you for that with a special portion of my heart!!

Happy Birthday to MEEEEEE!!

***Cheers*******

Muah! 

Much Love! 

PS: To my Family in Florida... Can't wait to celebrate with all of you too on Friday!!!!...... 

Florida Here I come!!!!!! 💕💕💕