Today 4 years ago, mark the day when I set foot on Florida SOIL... Today 4 years ago my challenging journey of rebuilding started.
I was so Scared, even though I had a Big smile on my face. My knees were shakin and my heart was racing, not sure of the unknown, but
God kept whispering into my heart.......
"Life is tough my darling, but so are YOU.....
you are STRONGER in me!!"
My heart was broken in pieces... I suffered from anxiety because of the sudden changes I had experience that past year... My world had Crumbled... Broken dreams of a marriage life was vaporized in the midst of days. I faced challenge after challenge after challenge prior that year and in the middle of the anxiety, the judgement of those who pointed fingers at me because of my decision, I made a commitment and made sure to HOLD God's word into my heart. Even though I didn't know how it'll all workout in my future.
I still remember vividly how I was feeling the day before arriving to Florida .....There I stood in San Antonio, Texas. In a small room at a Motel... Halfway to my destination (Florida) Without much money in my bank account in my bank account ((enough to get me to my trip))...a 5 year old and an almost 2 year old. No job..
There in that dark room after my little ones were gone to sleep, I stared at the ceiling, scared and with a little bit of doubt.....I SHOOK MYSELF before the fear would try to overtake me ..... Right there I vowed to myself, to my kids and to God that I was going to hold onto His promise of a better life for me in Florida no matter the hard work I needed to face, I was going to make it work.... No turning BACK!
And looking back 4 years now, it was in the midst of all those challenges that God show off Himself in my life in a miraculous way..... Quietly, but Very LOUDLY inside my heart....
I used to hear stories of people having miracles in their lives in a big way, mighty majestic. To me God performed miracles after miracles, in the quiet places of my heart, in the small things, in my everyday, in strangers, in family members.
It molded my faith and my character as an individual and as a Christian. He started healing my heart within the new challenges that presented to me on that first few years.
There were times I could not HANDLE IT ANYMORE. But I kept faithfully calling up on Him, Declaring His word, His promises.
And just thinking about my moving anniversary I look back in amaze of How amazingly BIG God has SHOW Up in my Life. He has RAISED me UP... I didn't do it by my own strength but HIS. I am INDEPENDENT today, because I am completely and totally DEPENDENT upon Him. He Raise me Up Financially, Spiritually, Emotionally, Physically. He provided and raised 2 little ones side by side with me and continues to do so without missing a beat.
I have always believed in not having any limitations as an individual, and God never let me down on that and has given me the ultimate life lesson in understanding that when you are by His side there is NO LIMITATIONS.
His presence in my life has ELEVATED ME, I have been able to provide for me and my children, to be able to live on my own, to have a good job. He brought me to a place where I was able to join a community of amazing people, to be a part of a community in an amazing Church. Which has given me the opportunity to teach God's values to my children and I have had the opportunity to travel to the other side of the world to Serve Him, All of this in the midst of my challenges.
I am so grateful for everyone that has been part of my journey, then and Now.
And today I stand strong...... But I recognize that His work in me does not end here... There is a lot more challenges I am sure I'll have to face to become the person I need to be for the next level He is going to take me.
I am so thankful for the life God has chosen for me and I trust wholeheartedly His will for my future.
So please pray for me.... I'm making a few decisions to continue my growth and on track of what He has for me. If u are a close friend please every time you see me, I give you permission to continue to push me and to hold me accountable for the next goals I have this year.
May the Glory of God continues to show in the work He is doing in my life.
So today I say....
Yes....
My name is Marisabel Matta.
I am a believer of Jesus Christ.
I am a woman of God.
I am a business woman for His Kingdom.
I am a single mother.
I am a missionary.
I am a servant for my community in His name.
I am a leader.
I am a writer.
And I am soon to be a Student. ;-)
And.... Most importantly I am WORTHY of being LOVE..... Soy Digna de ser Amada.
And today I extend my heart to you to remind you that ......
If I am worthy ..... So.... ARE.... YOU!!!
Much love,
Muah!! Besos!!
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