It's one of those nights. ;-)
Those nights when I just sit down with a cup of tea to ponder and write.
Decided to share of one my entries of my very personal journal.
But before I do, I wanted to share some
Of my favorites writing quotes:
"Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation."-Graham Greene-
"If a writer knows enough about what he is writing about, he may omit things that he knows. The dignity of movement of an iceberg is due to only one ninth of it being above water."
And that's the beauty of writing, it is not required to give everything, the beauty lies right at the borderline of the amount of details one choose to expose. The magic lies in the little mystery of the message. ;-)
Writing brings healing (at least to me it does) not only to the writer, but to the one reading it too. And the best part is
we (the writers) get to keep that small fraction of the story deep within our heart, just for ourselves.
Now, this one right here is one of those moments when you surprisingly meet someone wonderful and special, but for different reasons (timing, distance, stubbornness, life, etc..) things sometimes don't workout the way you want them to be. Is about the struggle of trying to find that balance in between keeping to nurture that friendship while healing the heartbreak. --It might not make any sense to some of you, but it does to me-- <3
So here it goes... A little piece of my personal journal that I hold very close to my heart! ....Enjoy!.....
Last night I hesitated.....
Last night I hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.
I don't know why it happens, but I still think of you constantly.
I don't know why I still miss you, when I've talked myself over and over again about all the reasons why I need to take you out of my heart.
And so last night I hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.
I do know why but I try to keep it hidden deep within my heart.
I try to look for excuses to hate you, but I have none.
I try to erase the mark you have left in my heart, but my heart is not immune to the special imprint that you possess within me.
And after knowing all that.....
Last night I still hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.
I know why it happens and even though a little less, I do know why I still think of you.
I know why I still miss you, even after looking for countless reasons to take you out of my heart.
I hesitate because I have offer to be part of your life and all I get is silence.
I hesitate because if I am your rock like you always say, then nothing can push us away and all I get is distance.
I hesitate because even though I love you and think the world of you, I am a solid woman that needs to keep her DIGNITY.
I hesitate because if you really want me to be the rock in your life, then you wouldn't be so stubborn and you would make a way to be in it.
And well, I will continue to hesitate every other night, because my heart wants to keep LOVING you.
I will hesitate because I don't want to grow pieces of bitterness within me.
And I figured if you really want to be in my life....if you really want my presence in your heart, not only would you reach OUT without hesitation, but your presence in my life would have been unquestionable.
Sincerely,
Me.
--Marisabel Matta-
That is All!
#offmysoapBox #ImNotEvenMad
#ImJustSayin
Besos!! Muah!
#PeaceOutImOut
