Take Heart & Keep Pushing

It has been such a busy weekend in between kiddos, school orientation, getting everything ready for the school starting this week, church meetings, serving responsibilities I have.. Etc..

Just between last night and today I had a tight schedule between serving, and meetings for upcoming projects I will be a part of and other serving opportunities I have. 

And well... as I was drafting this new "single moms" group that I decided to lead at our very own church (( which I decided to pursue upon much prayer)) 

A little thought of guilt came to mind... I thought: " Gosh, I hope my kids have been ok today because we have been just "hopping a little all over the place" 

Knowing that truthfully, I give my kids plenty of quality time. 

But as moms we tend to plant a little seed of doubt from time to time.

And well, a little bit into my drafting and putting thoughts and ideas together my Little E comes up to me and right behind him was little diva.

 Without me even mentioning anything he says ((while looking at the things I'm typing)) :

"Mommy, is that part of the meeting we just went?!" Me: "Yes, it is and I am almost done"

He goes: " You know Mom, I think all of this is amazing, I LIKE All the things that you are doing to Help others." 

Me... At this point about to tear up, but the smile on my face was super wide, I said: " I am so glad you think that".... He quickly interrupted me and says: " Yes, I LIKE all of It, having you as my mom and seeing all the things you are doing.... You went to Africa to help people, you help at my school and at church, you also Help so Many Mamas with "Give Her Wings" and Now you are trying to start a Single Moms group to help other moms like you in here.. I'm happy you do all these things and I think all of it is amazing"...

❤️💕 my heart melted💕💕 and 

I just gave that child a tight hug... 

God sure finds a way to encourage Me daily!

Friends, I don't know why I am writing and sharing this... But perhaps we all need a Little reminder that through our busyness while pursuing our hearts desires, goals and meaningful fruitful things... The time and energy spend at the end of the day it will matter. You are not ONLY making a difference in your community BUT you are also making a difference at HOME with Your actions.

At the end of the day Kids will learn more about life by the Type of "movement" you are Causing in your own life and community!

To my single moms...

"Single parent mothers who aren't spending their time looking for a man but spending their time providing for their children are the most admirable people on earth"

Be inspired. Your #1 fans will be your kids.

#TakeHeart  & #KeepPushing 

And if you are a single mother in my are or you know of any single momma out there.. Message me or give her my info.. We are launching our Life Groups at Highland Park Church the week of Sept 13th

I will be next weekend in between services assisting people Signing UP!!!! 

Muah!!!! 

#DivaMommy #LetsDoThis #GreatThingsAhead #Leader #LifeGroupLeader 

#Journey 

"Shalom"

These past few months have been  very "trial" for me. 

A few life unexpected changes have come into place, along side dealing with some matters of my heart. 

And a conversation with my mom a month ago made me do a little more "soul searching".... 

She said: "daughter, you need to remain in Peace, and pray for peace, but not just peace, but that "Shalom" Peace. That perfect peace".. And she just left it at that... ((she does this quite often.. She Says something then leave it "hanging")) so, of course, I have done a little research about that Hebrew word.. "Shalom" to get to its depth of meaning, and to really soul search and find ways to apply it into my current situation in life. 

I feel that life is a constant trial, but I want to get a hold of each moment, even the tough ones. To make sure that I also change and grow through the process. That after the "test" at least I can come up a different person/woman, with a different perspective and a stronger character, ready for the next step of my life!!! 

Went out tonight with some beautiful women.....we sat around for hours and while talking and spending time getting to know them, I felt "Shalom" ALL over me!!!!

And I just got home smiling really Wide!!!! 

And so I decided to "record" this moment...... So that I may remember one day! 

And I wanted to share with you the CORE of what I have found about "Shalom" (Peace) in my life!!!..... 

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"Hebrew words go beyond their spoken pronunciation. Each Hebrew word conveys feeling, intent and emotion. Shalom is more then just simply peace; it is a complete peace. It is a feeling of contentment, completeness, wholeness, well being and harmony.

According to Strong's Concordance 7965 Shalom means completeness, wholeness, health, peace, welfare, safety soundness, tranquility, prosperity, perfectness, fullness, rest, harmony, the absence of agitation or discord. Shalom comes from the root verb shalom meaning to be complete, perfect and full. In modern Hebrew the obviously related word Shelem means to pay for, and Shulam means to be fully paid.

Of course, there is only one way to find TRUE shalom - and that is in the Word of God. 

Many search for fulfillment, happiness and contentment in material possessions, money, sex, entertainment, etc. But those things do nothing to fill "that little hole in our soul" that only GOD can fill! Those things only serve to distract and prevent us from finding true peace...the shalom that can only come from Him who created and put all things into place."✨💫******

And YES indeed!!! God put all things into place, even in times when we are not able to see it!!!!! 

Muah!!! Xoxoxo! Besos!! 💖💗💋

💖💗💖Te amo Madre!!! 💗💖💗

Last night I hesitated.......

It's one of those nights. ;-) 

Those nights when I just sit down with a cup of tea to ponder and write.

Decided to share of one my entries of my very personal journal. 

But before I do, I wanted to share some

Of my favorites writing quotes:

"Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation."-Graham Greene-

"If a writer knows enough about what he is writing about, he may omit things that he knows. The dignity of movement of an iceberg is due to only one ninth of it being above water."

And that's the beauty of writing, it is not required to give everything, the beauty lies right at the borderline of the amount of details one choose to expose. The magic lies in the little mystery of the message. ;-) 

Writing brings healing (at least to me it does) not only to the writer, but to the one reading it too. And the best part is 

we (the writers) get to keep that small fraction of the story deep within our heart, just for ourselves. 

Now, this one right here is one of those moments when you surprisingly meet someone wonderful and special, but for different reasons (timing, distance, stubbornness, life, etc..) things sometimes don't workout the way you want them to be. Is about the struggle of trying to find that balance in between keeping to nurture that friendship while healing the heartbreak. --It might not make any sense to some of you, but it does to me-- <3

So here it goes... A little piece of my personal journal that I hold very close to my heart! ....Enjoy!.....

Last night I hesitated.....

Last night I hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.

I don't know why it happens, but I still think of you constantly. 

I don't know why I still miss you, when I've talked myself over and over again about all the reasons why I need to take you out of my heart. 

And so last night I hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.

I do know why but I try to keep it hidden deep within my heart.

I try to look for excuses to hate you, but I have none. 

I try to erase the mark you have left in my heart, but my heart is not immune to the special imprint that you possess within me.

And after knowing all that.....

Last night I still hesitated. Just like every other night, I hesitate to reach out to you.

I know why it happens and even though a little less, I do know why I still think of you.

I know why I still miss you, even after looking for countless reasons to take you out of my heart.

I hesitate because I have offer to be part of your life and all I get is silence.

I hesitate because if I am your rock like you always say, then nothing can push us away and all I get is distance.

I hesitate because even though I love you and think the world of you, I am a solid woman that needs to keep her DIGNITY. 

I hesitate because if you really want me to be the rock in your life, then you wouldn't be so stubborn and you would make a way to be in it.

And well, I will continue to hesitate every other night, because my heart wants to keep LOVING you.

I will hesitate because I don't want to grow pieces of bitterness within me. 

And I figured if you really want to be in my life....if you really want my presence in your heart, not only would you reach OUT without hesitation, but your presence in my life would have been unquestionable. 

                               Sincerely, 

                                               Me. 

                                 --Marisabel Matta-

That is All!

#offmysoapBox #ImNotEvenMad

#ImJustSayin 

Besos!! Muah! 

#PeaceOutImOut 

Letters to Grandpa....

Dear Grandpa, 

Just a short year ago, you were walking here with us.

Today you are gone, but we will always honor your memory.

My heart and mind were troubled the other day that I wished Heaven had visiting hours, so I could go up and embrace you in a big hug and listen to your words telling me:" Everything will be alright, you got This... FOCUS! You are strong my granddaughter." ;'( 

But I'm happy to know that you are out there without pain, looking down on me, knowing that I will ALWAYS walk In Victory because that's the only way you've taught me how.... <3 <3 

It was such a great night filled with mixed emotions.... But the highlight of the day was the messages I found from my little E.... I guess my heart was not the only one writing a letter....

 "Dear Grandpa,

Me and Janechca Miss you, I hope you do well in Heaven."

2nd mssg:" Please find the cure for cancer, my grandpa died because of it and now I Relay for him. I miss him... -Ezequiel-

In order to recover our sense of hope and courage, we must acknowledge our mourning in a healthy way, remembering and honoring the past, but looking ahead into the future with HOPE. 

"Blessed are those that mourn, for they will be comforted." -Matthew 5:4

Be a Woman of Substance

To all my Chicas, a little inspiration for you all!!!! ;-) 

Learn to Be a Woman of Substance!

"A woman of Substance knows that life is NOT a Fairy Tale where she has to SIT and WAIT for a Prince to come on a white horse and make her dreams come true. She STRIVES HARD to overcome all the obstacles to achieve what she wants because she knows that if she wants something she has to FIGHT for it."!!! -Aarti Khurana-

It takes COURAGE to commit to remain SINGLE, especially as a single mother. But when you commit to work on yourself FIRST, to "Aquire" things and complete "milestones" in your life for yourself FIRST. You actually Learn to appreciate yourself FIRST before Expecting anyone else to appreciate you. You learn that you are Capable of amazing things you never thought possible to do on your own. And even though it is not an easy road (yes, it gets lonely sometimes) the satisfaction that you get knowing that you let the process and the journey Change and mold you... It's Priceless. 

You learn to Love people in a different light and way. You accept Life's course and adjust sail. And in return.. You will get respect, appreciation, inspiration from others without you having to EXPECT. You build a Life for yourself that when someone comes, is not to "rescue you" But to COMPLIMENT what you already Have. ;-)

I already have a Savior, and that's Jesus in My heart. With HIM ALL, without HIM I am NOTHING!! <3 <3

Woot Woot! 

And yes after my 6 mile Run, I am feeling FANTASTIC!! 

I hope you all have an amazing FRIDAY!! Muah!!!! Xoxoxoxo! #besos 

#inspiration #womanofsubstance #fitdiva #fitlife #fitness #lifeinspiration #AartiKhuranaQuotes #inspirationalQuotes #inspirationalmessages #fitsinglemom  #Single #singlemommy #singlemothers #ROCK

I Can't do everything, BUT everything I can I will Do

Where I go they go!!! Not because I make them but because they want to! <3

I took a little break at the top while waiting for them because they wanted to climb up the bleachers, to show and say...:"mommy, I can do it too" ;-) I have learned over the years that......

"It's NOT what you do for your children, but what you have TAUGHT them to do for themselves, THAT will make them successful human beings"

I'm a single mom and I realized that no matter how much I do for them, at the end it will never be enough because I can't be mom and dad... I will always lack what a male figure can give them... But what I can do is teach them that I accept I can't do everything for them but everything I can I will do... But also I can show then through my actions that they are ABLE to do things for themselves.....!! #BoOM a little Track #Reflection "Parenting is tough because it forces us to GROW."

But.......

"your children WILL become who you are; so Be who YOU want them to BE" 

Are you who YOU want to be,if Not... Then Start Working on it!!!!! Muah! #SundayFitnessWisdom 

#fitlife #fitdiva #fitmommy #fitsinglemom #fitnesslife #loveyourself #lovemykiddies #TeamNoexcuses #nikeplus #JustDoitTeam #JustDoit #IjustDidit #inspiration #parenting #actions #Doit #tracktraining #track #Besos

Above all..... choose to live with INTEGRITY

"Whatever values you hold dear—whether it’s kindness, gentleness, calmness, or honesty—live it. Be it, even if the people around you don’t seem to value the same things; especially if the people around you don’t seem to value those things. That might be the very reason you came into their lives."

Looking at this pic, it makes me think about that thought.

Wanted to share this with you.. If u know me by now, I'm quite the "ponderer".

Our wonderful receptionist comes to my office and tells me I have a "visitor" --It was a busy day at work and I was not sure who it was" she proceed to let the "visitor" in... A sweet woman (one of our patients) walks in carrying this big green beautiful plant and a gift box in hand.. Enters my office and says:"I'm sooo sorry" me>>> shocked at this point thinking that she got the wrong person... 

She proceeds:" I am very sorry, I was so Rude to you yesterday and I went home and kept thinking about you and how unfair I was to you with the way I treated you.. , and even though I was out of line, I was impressed of how calm and collected you were and I could not sleep"

Me:>> at this point remember about the situation, but  really after the incident yesterday I didn't think too much of it and went about my normal duties.. --

So I said:" Oh my Gosh! Everything is fine, don't worry about it, I didn't think to much of it"

She goes:" No I'm embarrassed and I'm very sorry.. Is this your office?! ... Here I got you this ( referring to the plant) I hope you like it in your office" and handed me the gift box..

I gave her a big HUG and told her she didn't needed to do all that and She said :" I know but I wanted to, I appreciate your kindness" 

I thanked her and she got teary eyed and told me how hard of a week/month she have had. 

And so you know, when she was gone I felt joy in my heart.. her thoughtfulness and gesture. she did not needed to do it, but she did anyway! We are all human, we all have "our bad days" but even though we have bad days too, we can all choose to live with integrity above all! She encouraged me today and I hope you Be encouraged too! 

 Especially when we live in a time that media only shows the bad and negative.. But forget to add emphasis in the many many many moments that a lot of us CHOOSE to keep our Humanity! 

Pretty amazing if I say so myself! 

"Being human is given. But keeping our humanity is a CHOICE" 

#ThatIsAll 

Much Love!