""The eyes are the windows to the Soul"

So a good friend send this to me early this afternoon..... :-) 

Thank you Dre'! You are soooo talented, thank you for "enhancing me" ;-) hehe!! I really Love it! And it really inspired me...!!!! Xoxoxo! 

Now, everyone don't be fooled about all the filter and the editing involved! ;-) 

But it does like something that could be from a magazine...(when I get there, I for sure be calling you Dre') Lol! 

Now, in all seriousness, I let that quote Sinked IN for a minute! 

And then I wondered, how and what do people really see through my "windows" ... It made me wondered, do they see a perfect life, do they see happiness, do they see suffering, pain, Joy?!!! Strength?! 

And I often get emails, messages and calls of amazing people that tell me that I at some point have inspired them, and they lifted me up...... But I still wondered what do they really see?!

And so I decided to invite you through the "windows" of my last 2 days. (Only the last 2days, believe me there is so much more going on but I'm only sharing those last 2)!

My son woke up yesterday morning coughing in the verge of asthma (it's very mild and only gets it seasonal occasionally) 

So, I dropped my daughter, took my son to the office (thankful for my job and boss) and worked part of the morning making sure I finished some job responsibilities and then headed home to take care of my son... Making sure I did everything I could to make him feel better and healthier. Picked up my daughter and it seemed she was coughing too. Took care of them (the usual) put them to bed and started to get everything ready for the next day. 

Woke up today, son was feeling better (Hallelujah) and my daughter well was feeling better too.

Then before I left work, it started  to rain..(hear me out here, I know that there is snow in some places, I get it) but I picked up the kids and headed home... Knowing that I had to go to the grocery store to get a few things, but because I have 2 sick children did not wanted to expose them to the bad weather. Got home and fed them homemade soup, give them baths and realized that I have to go to the grocery store after all because I Really needed to get water among other things...

And so at this point, I can feel the little voice inside of me starting to say, "I can't believe I'm on own and have to do this" ... I try to ignore it and I just put on my big girl's panties and out the door I go...  

It was pouring outside and had to really maneuver so that the kids did not get wet, and all I needed was about 7 essential items! 

Got my groceries and loaded kids, trunk with the groceries and headed back home... On my way home, inside of me I was really having a pity party... Tears started to roll down my cheeks as I started to questioned God in my head...:"Why?! Why everything I have to do feels 5 times harder!? Why?!!... How long does He expects me to keep doing this on my own... How long?!" Then more tears started to roll down my face, because I don't want to be ungrateful... I'm glad I have a job, money to buy those groceries and car that runs well to take me here and there.... But I get Weary too!!! And I Dare NOT get Sick!! I simply Can't.....Yes, this so called "Super Woman" gets weary too. And with tears in my eyes, got home, took the kids inside first under the umbrella and then headed outside on the rain with no umbrella because I need both hands to carry groceries including a Big case of water... And right there when I was about to lose it.... 

A thought came to me about one of the staff members that works with me--nice lady called Stephanie--

And I remembered how this morning when I got to work, she came to my office, told me to get up and gave me a tight BIG HUG and held me for about 40 seconds....Followed by her sweet words:" I am Sooooo Happy YOU are HERE" it felt as she was not  meaning only at work but here In Existence. <3

And you know those words Carried me through the rest of the night and got me Out of the pity party I was about to embark... Lol!

Now, please don't take pity on me... I realized that there is actually a very GREAT percentage of single mothers out there that are having a REALLY tough time... It was not easy for me to be in the place I am today, but I'm glad, that I keep my life somewhat "together". And every single sacrifice that I have had to do and continue to do, it is all WORTH IT!!! Nothing compares to the Joy one can feel!

I want to encourage you today to really look at your "windows" what does your soul say?!

Whatever it is... Acknowledge it, all of it is important...a very good friend reminded me this week that Healing comes from letting enough room in your soul to be angry, happy, enough room for grief, for relief, for misery and for JOY! 

So Be encourage, just the same way I am... And never forget that there is always someone, somewhere that is having a Tougher time than us!!!!

-Thank You Leisa- <3

And to my Single Mommas out there... I'm sending you a BIG HUG and I want you to know that I am sooooo HAPPY You Are HERE... I am very glad of your Existence!! Keep pushing forward!!!!

 

Thank you Dre' for your inspiration today!!! Xoxo! 

Muah! Besos!! 

Sooo...

This Diva is Checking OUT!! 

#Peace #ThatIsAll #OffMyChest

#singleMotherREALChronichles 

#divachronichles #keepPushing #itsgoingToBeOK #Beencouraged

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#TroubledHeart

Heartbroken...... We are so used to know this word out of a complete negative impact. Pain, disappointments, betrayal. 

I have been there and One feel such an excruciating pain. Your heart inside that chest pocket.....Same place but completely shattered to pieces. Feeling as if you can't even breath anymore, not knowing how to put the pieces back together, how to heal.

But then your heart heals and it feels good to be able to have the courage to be vulnerable again.... To Love! 

Now, how about a different side of heartbrokenness...... How about been heartbroken in the most wonderful and beautiful way you can ever imagine. Having someone in Your life that would do anything to be with you... that someone that 

, WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU KNOW....Yet, circumstances of Life, Distance, makes it close to impossible to follow your heart and give it a try....

The irony of it all!

 

Yet.... Caring and loving enough to wish nothing but the very best for you.... To be willing to continue in your life even if it is from the "side lines"....An act of unselfishness that only a "Heart of Gold" would do. A true act of Love. You don't come across many of those in a lifetime.

A moment like this that will challenge your mind/soul and makes you think....:"Should I conform myself to the cards dealt to me from life?!" Am I able to live with the "What if"?! Am I really willing to let Life circumstances DICTATE my future?! 

One thing I know for sure though, years ago I decided that I would never ever again would allow myself to live trapped on limitations. I promised myself I would Have the courage to listen and honor my heart and follow the desires within my heart. To honor myself on that decision.., to always Dare to go BEYOND MY LIMITS."

Yet, I also remember saying to myself years ago too..... "Lord, I want your ways to become my ways"

**Holding ON to His promises****......."Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me." -John 14:1-

**I** Believe! 

#DroppingUpTheMic #ThatIsAll 

#offMyDivaBox #ConfessionsofAHeart #AlwaysKeepingItReal 

How Can It Be?!

Today at church I was reminded of this truth:

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us" Romans 5:8

While we are still sinners, He loves us. We are all imperfect and we can Never measure up to His Love, yet He still Loves us. You and me just as we are. We all go through different forms of temptations, we struggle with thoughts of shame and... guilt. And even though is refreshing to hear this same truth, deep inside of us, we still question....How can it be?! Oh, Jesus, How can it be when at some point we all been guilty?! How can it be when our "dirty" bodies and souls, will never measure up to your Holiness? How can it be that you will love me like this?!
We struggle with this truth and we doubt ourselves that there is no way possible we will be able to be "clean enough", to be "perfect" enough to follow Him and receive His promises into our lives. We hide all of this inside of us and we tell to ourselves that we will wait until we are good enough to turn our face to Him. Yet, we forget that there is no way possible of us doing all of this in our own strength and power.
What about the message of His Grace?! Yes, what about Grace?!
A message that remind us that He Breaks our CHAINS, in Him we can overcome, He gave His life so we can be FREE!
You see We are all the same, but what set some of us apart is that we had make the decision to follow Him with our shameful "baggage" and place it in His hands knowing that we are still guilty, ashamed of what we have done, but trusting that we will continue to overcome. We still struggle but we wake up every morning with the choice of turning back to Him and try ONE MORE TIME... We never STOP TRYING, we NEVER GIVE UP!

And as I write this message to you in "Social platform" I asked of of you to Never put me up on a pedestal, never perceive me or my life as something so "perfect" and "unattainable " because it is NOT! I carry the same struggles within me as you do. I wake up sometimes ashamed of thoughts, behaviors, old habits. I feel sometimes Tired of following a path that feels as if is not taking me anywhere, to then be reminded of this same truth, then I shake myself up, get back up and try it one more time. To be reminded that I was made for a purpose and therefore I should never Give Up! We are all in this constant battle together and I am here today to remind You that yes YOU are Good Enough especially in the place you are in your life. I am here to remind you that YOU DO NOT Need to MEET God where He is at.... That's nearly Impossible, But I Promise you if you let go, He will MEET YOU RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE!!!
I pray that He will shake your heart, I pray that He will cover your life with His perfect love and that He will give you a glimpse of the perfect purpose He has set for you.

I hope you are encourage in Him today,
As always Much Love from this Diva's heart to yours,
Muah!
Besos! Happy Sunday!
#DivaontheLoose #chekingout