Love

I know some of you know, I just got back from Africa and spend about 17 days doing missionary work. It was an amazing experience and I can't wait to share more, in the meantime, I want to share with you little parts of my journal! 

 Muah!

Day 5

Love 

Over the years, I have asked that question to God. What is love?

Especially, over the last 4 years, after living with someone for 13 years, or having people in my life that have taken me for granted. I always was troubled with the meaning of love. Always questioning, how can someone love and yet take you for granted? How can someone love and treat you in such an unfair way?! 

After having my first child, I experienced love in a different kind of way, but yet, I started to understand that I cannot wrap the word LOVE around my son, because then that would not be healthy for any of us. Then after I became a single mom, I started to understand that I needed to find LOVE within me to be able to Love others and to love and appreciate relationships. I also learned that I should never expect to find happiness in the measure of love that I would receive from others. I must simply and genuinely Give it. We live in a society that ties the word LOVE with a very strong grip on marriage, a "relationship" as the Ultimate Meaning of LOVE, that it is so hard on some of us to be able to Co-Exist after a "breakup". 

But we got it all wrong, I have realized that I carry infinite amounts of LOVE within me, and I have to be able to be open and vulnerable enough to give it. I have realized that only when I find the place within me to accept and to love myself, I would not be able to comprehend its meaning. 

Today we traveled 2 and a half hours on a bus to visit the children of the school that our church started to build 3 years ago at the Mbare village. No source of water up in the mountain, only Adobe houses, no bathrooms

For us this was just a little "sacrifice" on our part to make it out there to deliver toys, schools supplies, etc. Now, for Them We Were their EVERYTHING! And I don't know about you my friends but that is just plain Love. Joyful people regardless of the situation, living conditions etc., they give you love. Material things were not that important to them but WE were. Our ACT of caring delivers LOVE and in return we have an immense overwhelming feeling of LOVE in return. 

So what is LOVE I ask you.

To me Love is Christ within me, He is the source of my soul and spirit, HE is my everything. 

Some people could not understand why I would want to come to Africa especially being a single mom Of 2 children. And I say why not?! I love my children very much and I have found God's Love within me, there is nothing to fear. I walk on faith because I understand we are ALL made for a special Purpose and I trust in Him completely to guide me in finding mine. 

And I thank Him for planting the Desire in me heart and for giving me the Courage to be able to follow that desire. 

I am exactly at the place where I am suppose to be. 

Now, look at all these happy faces it says LOVE all over it! 

Until the next time!! 

Muah! **Besos**