Friday, October 21, 2016

What do YOU want?



For those of you "following" my #DivaChronicles & well for those that have no choice because is on your newsfeed anyway ((I know, ...your welcome 👏👌...☝️hang in there..😂😂))).

My heart STOPPED when I got notification that all of my grading was complete...

History final exam 100% and research Paper ((which I got about a total of 20 gray hairs Yo'!) 
From 400 points I got a Whooping 390!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhh!!! 

There was so much crying Involved these past weeks, because I was tired.
 In occasions, I Wanted to pull my hair and had many sleepless nights but it was worth it!

Now, a little story about my history class and why it was so important for me to excel on it.

In the begginning of this class (1st week) there were a few things going on (( emotional most)) and that first week it was so hard,  trying to get the transition down. I had almost an anxiety attack before and during the exam and you know what?.... I flunked that test.. Like a 55 (F) to be more specific. 
The FIRST "F" in my life. 
I wanted to quit and I even told myself :" Well, I can't be too hard on myself because I am doing a lot, so as long as I get a C and pass this class, I'm good.." 

Then, my spirit convicted me, because here I was, God had given me the opportunity to go back to school and I am settling because of a little "hiccup.."
So u know what I did??!  I studied harder, I rearrange my schedule a bit, I had sleepless nights, drank coffee, cried, drank more coffee, had to say no to some fun outings with friends. In occasions I had to call my mom so she could calm me down. . She would prayed over me whenever she remember and I prayed a lot too! And from a D starting on this class I got an A... I was determined to get myself back out there.

And it made me think that often in life we do this same thing to ourselves, LIKE... Mostly ALL . THE.TIME. We fail and then back out and don't try harder, we pat ourselves on the back, say "At, least I tries".. And go and settle for that and we dare not try again. 

So yes!!!! You see an  A.. Oh Yay for me,  That's awesome.. Blah blah blah right?? But reality is ... Nope, I'm
Not lucky or "gifted" and NOPE this is not a breeze. We all have what it takes... IT SUCKS at times, it is stressful, but you just gotta keep pushing! 

And you know,  I'm glad for my F because it positioned my heart and gave me a clear vision for where I wanted to take myself!

My Pastor @coylindsey  Said: "Knowing what you want can change where you will end up" -Coy Lindsey

When we truly KNOW what we Want we can MAKE IT hAppen!!!
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So for you, I share my Pastor's words:" What do YOU Want?!.... Name IT... Describe it... Believe that you have what it takes....seek a plan of attack...& NEVER GIVE UP"

Never give up Yo'! 

Now, onto my next 2 classes ....

#HonorsRoll #HereICome 
#SEU #SeuStudent #SouthEasternUniversity 
#CommunicationsStudent 








Friday, October 14, 2016

"In YOU I Find REST"



💕💕 She is a single mom, a daughter, a survivor, a missionary, a full time student and has a demanding career!
She loves God and people with passion, she wishes to be a Journalist one day! 
Sometimes she calls her mom in the middle of the night crying because she wishes the heart will stop hurting from time to time. 
She questions herself and life situations, but still finds the strength to smile often. 
There are days when she is exhausted and does not want to keep "pushing", but in the midst of that she keeps SHOWING UP! 

Her heart wonders if she'll ever find a true companion in life.
From time to time she loses hope that there is a man out there that will honor her heart as God intended, BUT she KEEPS Believing His promises.
Often times she is referred as the "one with the curly hair", or "Ms. Diva", or "Superwoman". 
But truth is, she is as fragile as everyone else, she is KNOWN by God, she has no super powers, she is LOVED. 

The character behind this story is Me. 
I have many stories..... A compilation of Failures and Victories. 
BUT this particular story is the one I am carrying in my heart today! 

I still smile, I still crumble daily, I still hurt from time to time, I still wonder, I am still trying to figure it out. 💕

But I stand strong, because of God, because of Community, because of the mentors and pastors that God surrounds me daily.

Thank you to the people who invest and value my story, to "The Church Community in Lakeland", to my Pastor and the Somos Family for the Godly inspiration you are bringing into my life.  
💕💕-M.Matta

#SomosChurch #SomosFamily #EmbraceYourStory 
#CantWaitForSaturday

📷 credit: Melissa Riesenberg
📷 edit : M.Matta